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Don’t want new place to be a ‘widows’ place



So I’m moving in the next couple of weeks and one of the things that is not worrying but playing on my mind is that my new place is gonna be a ‘ widows’ place. I’m scared that this next chapter in my life is gonna be always known as someplace that a widow stays.
I know it may sound silly to read that last paragraph but for me it is the fear of not knowing “me” once I move. For not having anything in the property that is about me. Because having that will mean that he is no longer around. That everything I buy for the place from now on is gonna be my taste and not compromising to make it for us both.
I’m going in not knowing what I like and don’t like truly. It’s gonna feel like someone else’s place and not mine and that’s sad.

So until I work it out it stands that I am going into my new place with a lot of the stuff that I bought or given when I was married and that’s the wat it has to be.

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