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What I’ve learnt today


   What I learnt today ..................

    That getting out a freshly washed bed is the hardest thing on the planet, especially when it’s been snowing heavy over night and makes it look like mid December not the first full week in February. Silence apart from just a ticking clock is worse during the day than hearing an owl hoot at night and liking in complete darkness.The sound of a clock just goes through you.
    Catching up on tv programmes while curled up on the couch is all well and good but when the screen hits a certain angle and you see your reflection, it REALLY does make you think about the way you look when your looking back at yourself. Those thoughts lasted with me most of the day and resulted in me eating a bar of chocolate as I pondered.
    You should always have a tv programme or music on while dusting. In this case NCIS LA. Playing catch up is the way I seem to be doing things these days.
     Apparently when your struggling with thoughts and not doing anything it is the time to start dusting - I don’t even like dusting.
      Making it out the house to go to fitness class is always a good step. Even if you leave an hour early and end up sitting in the car listening to the radio. The class eventually went ahead but at fast forward speed. Even though I struggled near the end I actually liked the way of it. Will have to see how I am tomorrow.  There is something about coming in and jumping straight in the shower and washing your hair. It feels like a new start to the week, and that you can take on anything.
 
  MASSIVELY fed up with Valentines. It has to be over already it seems like to of been going on forever.
  Panicking about a phone call and not answering it will only lead to your anxieties waving high at you. And then returning the call that you deliberately didn’t answer. (It took a 10min difference between the first and second call)
  Second day reheats ALWAYS taste better than when they are first actually made.
 

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