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I hate the snow


Well it’s something I never thought I’d write but I hate the snow. We are in the middle of a red weather warning and there is thunder and lightning snow storm happening. And to be quite frank as much as I like seeing the lightning the grumbling of thunder and the snow rattling of my window is not doing anything for my anxieties. I did have a programme on during some of it but now I’m lying in bed in the pitch black, with only those noises happening and I can tell you it really isn’t the best feeling. Just waiting for something to come crashing into my window.
It’s all good during the day, yes it’s been showers on and off all day and everything has been cancelled but it was light and people were awake. I could easily distract myself. It’s sounds so silly writing all this down. The white stuff is great to watch (from the inside) but being out in it again sets of the anxiety levels about what might happen. Scenarios playing out in my head about what if this happens, or what if this happens what does it mean to what we’re doing.

Come on spring please come. Send some sun

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