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My mixed up brain - no friends

Ever get those feelings that you have no friends and no one actually wants to see how you are or spend time with you.
I feel like I’ve always struggled to make friends. Right through out school I didn’t have a group of close friends. It was easy for me to walk alone at breaks and lunch. I could disappear from the outer rim of a group chat with no one even noticing.

Tonight as I write this my brain is having the fight me that I have no one. And to be honest it is winning the fight. No one is reaching out to see if I want to do anything or plan anything. And honestly I wouldn’t know who to reach out to to suggest the same.
I guess you could call me a loner and to be honest that makes me sad as I do just wanna know people. Does that sound silly ? Because me reading that back my head is shouting at me telling me it sounds silly. Actually it sounds sad and desperate.


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