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Loosing the one thing in the night that helped

So for a long time the audio HARRY POTTER books have been my life line at night. They have been the noise that I needed to help calm things when the anxietys got to bad. Or when my late husband got taken into hospital.

It may seem silly to some reading this that audio books help with anxiety and mental health but in my case it does and in the case of Harry Potter I've lost track of the amount of times I have had each on repeat when the nights got to dark. 

Well tonight I don't have that. The device I was listening to them on has reset itself and I've lost them all. It may seem silly but it feels like another part of my husband has gone as it was him that put it on my device for me as they new it would help. 
My anxietys are building and I think it might be a long night. I feel so sad that it's gone from the machine that it was on. It sounds stupid I guess but it felt like part of me. Each night falling asleep to to books playing in the back ground. 


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