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Mental health and feeling alone


Something that I have always struggled with and I think I’m not alone with it. Is that with having mental health problems comes a feeling of being alone. The negative thoughts in my head telling me that I’m no good to be around, that no one wants to be friends.
I see other people with friends around them and yet I feel like I have no one to turn to. With my thoughts telling me that my issues would cause a problem and that’s why no one has stayed around. I repel rather than attract people.
The fear of saying the wrong thing and being judged is also an issue that ‘haunts’ my thoughts.
Anxiety, fear and low episodes. Being quiet, struggling to communicate and not a lot of interaction sum up me.
What I wouldn’t take to have people around to talk to. To distract me. And to except me for me and know that if I go quiet it’s probably an internal fight going on in my head.
Doing things that could be done with friends but I’m going by myself or with family isn’t the same. Sitting by myself in the pub while I have lunch and watching everyone else sitting chatting just makes the alone feelings even more strong. Not having anyone text or get in touch via social media asking if I wanna do something or how am I, is hard. (Anyone local)

It sounds so silly rereading what I’ve written but it is the way my head is

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