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Life goes on


  So today is the day. The day that I gave back our keys to the place we rented. To see every room empty feels like in some way displays how my heart is feeling.
  For all that I have said to everyone that’s asked if I’m still at our flat. No it didn’t feel like a home since the paramedics were in that fait full night. To see it with nothing and to walk away was SO hard. Could thing the sun was out so could hide my water fall of tears that started as soon as I shut the  car door. That made it final.
  The new place is just the same layout but doesn’t feel like I’m just moving to some where exactly the same. There is boxes and bags every where and trying to decide what stays and what goes is the next stage.  I’m so scared that it’s just gonna feel like a widows flat, that I’ve just switched flats and everything’s still the same. I want me to come through in what I own and if that means shopping for new things. Then guess it has to be lol

  The life we had is gone and I now have to work out who I am. I’m not gonna rush anything. If I’ve learnt anything it’s take life at the pace I need, not anyone else.
  Things are always happening, being organised. That my life goes on and yours stopped is what I’m struggling with. But I now that your around and that anything I do I’m doing it for the both of us.

Here’s to life going on one step at a time

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